Belated Thank You

I just wanted to thank everyone who responded to my identity crisis post.

Beth, Terri, JesKa, and Cassie you guys are absolutely AWESOME! thank you, thank you, thank you!

(and Cassie, Max is VERY, VERY cute, so glad i got to meet him this weekend. Smooch that chin for me!)

one more for good luck

my father is the king of the four leaf clover. He's found upwards of 13 a day this season alone. Also, he says he thinks it's a cry for help. As he's looking for these little buggers he hardly sees any honey bees. So on that note, I'm hoping to have a full hive by my birthday (and maybe FOR my birthday? hint hint** buzz buzz**)

I still have yet to find even one four leaf clover. (Miah and Ceci, the one i found while you were there was a set up. Dad found it first and I asked him to leave it there so i could pretend to find it while someone was looking ... hehehe... )

so i realize this blog is very feast and famine but here's another new post...

Her favorite thing to draw (although it is not pictured above) is Harry Potter. I'll have to get a photo of that soon. She also, apparently, carries him around in her belly "But someday he'll grow up."

Pictured above is Ceci - Esther's person art tutor and designated Creative Director of the hollow. We love you Aunt Ceci! -- oh and here i would like to point out that it is my brother's fault that Esther can use the word Cephalopod in a sentence.

My little singer song writer.

She takes after Ben. These are lyrics taken from various songs i've heard her sing over the last couple of days.

"Ooooh Dadddddieeeeee! He's a guy... and we're waaaaaaalking... He's got a skunk in his mooooouuuuthhh!!!"


"Nothing is REAL!! Everything is NOT REAL!! But it iiiiiSSSS Real, In my SHOOOOOOE!"


"Asa isn't big yet. But he'll be big some DAAAAAY! And then he'll walk with me to LAAAAAALi's HOOOOOOUUUUUUSE!

P is for Poop

Esther does her business, wipes, climbs down, looks in bowl

"It's a P mom! Because P is for Poop!!! HAHAHAHAHA!"

I look in the bowl too - it is indeed in the shape of a P.

Hello, my name's Esther.

These are those pictures we'll look back on and go awww... I personally like them because she's the same color, shape, and size as the watering can.








I told her to smile...

OOOOOHHHHH!!

Odd but Better

Today was a weird day but has left me feeling much better than my doom and gloom post from yesterday.

Asa was up all night again. Esther woke up at 4:30 this morning and refused to go back to sleep. Then Asa woke up just as i was sure i could get her to go back down and all hell broke loose. So i took one for the team and let ben go back to bed for a bit and i took the kids. Asa takes his first nap of the day around 9am so as it approached he became fussy so i roused Ben, put a movie on for Esther, a pot of coffee on for Ben, and sat down to nurse Mr Fussy-pants. by 9:30, the pot of coffee was full and cold, Asa was asleep upstairs in his crib and Esther, Ben, and I had all fallen asleep half way through A Grand Day Out. I awoke some time later with a sweaty Esther arm over my face and Ben and Asa upstairs playing something i like to call "thump, thump, screech." After Esther woke up we decided that all this rain and recent ranting warranted a family adventure (particularly one that involved fench fries).

Our outting was extremely successful and we came home with lots of treasures - a few goodwill goodies; records including patsy cline, the smothers brothers, and my personal favorite, the super hits vol. 2 which features people like otis redding and the beegees; a $3.00 hammer; a musical airplane; a small wooden airplane with a moving propeller; 6 unused napkins; a blue plastic bracelet; and a white trash t-shirt that makes my milkers look HUGE!

we've just had a lovely dinner of tofu sandwiches and left over potato salad which i just topped off with the first scoops of a brand new quart of chocolate velvet soy delicious.

so with our freezer full of promises, a young and yet unsoiled night, a booby shirt, and a great present for my dad tomorrow i will leave you with a few videos to ponder:

this first one is a sample of how esther greets her little brother every morning, with a lovely and very long version of happy birthday.



this second one is just cute but she's a little too quick to be caught on camera so beware those of you who get car sick.



And this last one is her with her new favorite after nap snack. not very filling but oh how fun.

Identity crisis or no sleep blues...

i think i'm having a mommy identity crisis. it's slowly dawning on me that i am not the kind of mom i always thought i would be. i'm much more like that hypothetical mommy that i swore i would never be. it depresses me how little "fun" i actually have as a parent. don't get me wrong, my kids are great and very funny... but about 97.4% of the time i'm yelling, or scolding, or teaching, or they're crying, or i'm crying... i don't know that i ever thought being a mom would necessarily be easy perse, but i certainly thought it would have come more naturally to me. there's some sort of mommy-instinct or "mother's intuition" that i seem to be missing. and it's not like any of this is all that new of an epiphany but most of the time i can comfortably ignore the nagging feeling that i'm one of those mommies (the kind who bribe, the kind who have children who protest by SHRIEKING*, the mean, unattentive, too busy, inconsistent, worried about how clean the house is, that thinks her kid is smarter than every other kid - and that's not necessarily a good thing, the kind who puts on Wallace and Gromit for the 3rd time today so she can sneak into the bathroom to eat the last traces of the chocolate velvet tofutti** because she doesn't want to share)... lately, it just makes me sad. and the real kick in the pants is how easily ben seems to have adapted to fatherhood. i know things aren't easy for him either and that he doesn't necessarily have some sort of super psychic power over the children (what i wouldn't give for mind-control capabilities these days). i think it's more that he seems more... um... content. meanwhile there are those awful rotten days where i am just waiting for the neighbors to call CPS for all the screaming and when those glorious CPS reps show up at my door i won't say anything i'll just hand them the screaming biter, and shove the very dirty, loud toddler that has been recently evicted from either under the table or from around one or both of my legs and i will skip away down the lane a whole 3 inches taller from the weight that is no longer crushing my will to... well to do what ever i want... which, sad as it is, runs more towards having 5 minutes alone in the bathroom than going to france and buying shoes.

but just now it occurs to me why so many people read dooce. because... i'm not alone... so if you're out there, reading this and not shaking your head thinking i'm nuts and half way through dialing CPS yourself give me a shout out... i could use some solidarity just now...


*oh the shrieking. albeit, it's happy shrieking but it's that earpiercing, just-this-side-of-a-dog-whistle, the skies are about to open and swallow everything, air-raid siren, we're all about to die, someone's hearing aid is malfunctioning, faulty microphone on stage SHRIEKING!!!! i gave birth to a banshee... and the other one thinks it's funny and does all she can to encourage said SHRIEKING!!! i have fantasies about calling him up when he's an adult and when he answers "hello" in his cool, suave, grown-up, chest-hair voice i will SHRIEK directly into the mouthpiece for a good solid 20 seconds and then hang up... oh and just for real fun i'll do it at 3:29am exactly.

**and the tofutti isn't because i'm being good and health conscious, it's mainly because if i eat any sort of dairy or even walk through the refridgerated dairy section Asa is up howling 12 times in the night rather than his standard 5 times.

Doctor's visit

Asa had his first doctor's appointment yesterday (aside from his two-day and three-week check ups at the birthcenter). It went well. He got his first round of immunizations (i know, i know... ). Poor kid. He did stellar though - well Ben says he did. I had to work yesterday so Ben took Asa and i missed it. Which is probably better for everyone as I'm relatively sure immunizations are part of a larger conspiracy and my children tend to know when i'm anxious and thus freak out a bit more than they would normally.

Ben says Asa is 19lbs, but i think he messed that up and will be weighing him myself later on this week (i don't have a scale and have to go to Lali's and Grandpa's house and use theirs).

In other news, Becky and Alan are on the two week count down to their nupituals. I'll be hosting a small bachelorette party here in honor of the death of Becky's single-personhood (which, in all honesty started getting gravely ill as soon as she and Alan started dating).

And to top it all off, here are few pictures of my extremely white amish husband and Esther (who insisted on wearing my t-shirt after she got out of the pool) in the garden.

pictures...because i'm too lazy to be witty...

No, he's not dead, just sleeping...


I'm pretty sure the next few pictures are from when i caught them plotting to over-throw the regime